Persistent Paradise

I am not just your girl

but i am this girl

a bit of a ghost in here

but noisier than ever

screaming silently

I know u never lied

but inexperience exaggerates

Truth sings strong and loud

this song is quiet and meek right now

i'm stubborn and fragile

i'm not where i was but where i've always been

So lost waiting to find

Magic under monotony

can there be bliss through pain?

Is it strength from weakness?

Is there passion beyond plain?

I'm hoping for intense perfection within idealistic mediocracy

I'm aiming with all i've got

to see my truth in this

the best from you in me

Calculating destiny

finding strength in captivity i've been

now i'm running to beat the collective

surpassing my past

to reinvent to something grander and wiser

it's more precise and thorough this time

Begging for no regrets

learning forgiveness

I don't want a sidekick anymore

i want an extension of the royal kind

A solitary soldier i once thought

the mother in me i fought

you have no idea how tough a lot this can be

Muting my anger of my unseen identity

my bouts of pretend arrogance

a result of all this repression

boxed away like a secret

praying for another release

Someday my music will play out the longest and strongest

most resonating note

I'll believe you then